As stated succinctly in the tagline of my blog title, I’m an enigma. If you look that word up at Dictionary.com, you find this definition: “a person of puzzling or contradictory character.” I think that describes me pretty well, as does the title of this blog, Gothic Hippie. Let me explain.
In 2004, at a relatively advanced age, I became a pagan, and subsequently, a Wiccan. This bold move on my part did two things. First, it conjured up (pun intended) all the old hippie tendencies of my youth. I was an earthy kid, who in middle and high school wore bell bottoms and army jackets with peace sign and ecology flags sewn on it. I was highly influenced by Rachel Carson’s book, Silent Spring, which ignited the environmental movement.
Sadly, after high school, I got all caught up in the me generation of the 1980’s, and conveniently forgot about my youthful causes. Wicca brought that back.
Secondly, Wicca awakened my goth side. I had always had interests in macabre things, such as horror movies (atmospheric, not Freddy Krueger), vampires, dark mythologies, hauntings, etc. When I began meeting people in the witchcraft community, I became familiar with the goth subculture. I found that I had a lot of common interests with those folks, and I explored further. I found more interests and practices that I enjoyed. Over the course of the past six years, this way of looking at life has become as ingrained in me as my hippie outlook.
I suppose it’s not as diametrically opposed as it appears at first glance. The hippie movement was a counterculture opposition to the establishment, as is the goth culture. Without the hippie movement, there might not have been a goth subculture. They are both cultures that eschew societal norms. It can cause me a degree of mental tug-of-war at times, but normally it’s a fairly easy balance.
I have tried blogging a few times, both under a Wiccan premise. Honestly, I found it difficult to write about Wicca or witchcraft all the time. With this blog, I feel I can talk about a wide range of stuff, both magical and mundane. If you are reading this, I hope you’ll stop by again!